Friday, October 31

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Wednesday, October 29

Dedicated

To Dorothy,

As you chanced upon this post, I hope you will understand what's going on the my heart right now. Suddenly, I click on the URL which links to yours. Yes, I read every single word of it. And roughly, I think I know what actually happened.

You know, as a friend. There's nothing really much I can do for you other than to cheer you up with some entry's' like this one here. I have been through such stages. So I will never ask you to 'forget' neither would I tell you ' not to think about it any more '. Unless your brain is similiar to an eraser otherwise, you won't be able to do both of it.

Change your thoughts and you'll change your world. Everything will differ in your point of view, no one can go back and make a brand new start yet anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending. Of course, I know you do feel tired. But this is what life exactly about.

True love is when you have to watch him leave, with the knowledge that you might never see him again. But you know he'll be in your mind and heart forever. As what they said " when a door closes on you. Turn around and you'll see the other one open before you. "

Think carefully of what you are going to do in the future.
There's still many people who cared for you. If you thought, by losing him. You lost your will power, your heart and soul. Look at us, we are still here for you. Sometimes, being friends with someone you love might be a better chioce. At least, you dont get the chance of losing him once again.

I'm just 8 numbers away, call me.

POSTED BY ☆ オードリーDREY @ 7:38 PM



Monday, October 27

When everything gone wrong,

And here, I stand alone.

You work for what you want, not waiting for it. You see the differences when I put you next to this sentence? I hope you really feel it, I really do hope. This time, it really brought me down. Even further than I expected. This was the worst.

And in this entry, when my tears start to tickle down my cheek. I lost hope in every single way. I have never felt so helpless.

Happiness is not a station you arrive at, but a manner of traveling.

POSTED BY ☆ オードリーDREY @ 9:30 PM



Saturday, October 25

Infected

So, I managed to mug for History this afternoon at Macdonalds.

Planned for movie later in the night. But somehow, I got infected with this sickly virus. Which means, I threw my Love with his friends and headed home. That's a very very sad case.

( so, I shall end this post with -pouts- )

POSTED BY ☆ オードリーDREY @ 11:56 PM



Tuesday, October 21

Fifth

Another day of the month worth remembering. Yet, I'm pretty busy with my O'levels and stuffs! However, don't worry my dear. You have all the time in the world be with me on this very special date every month forever. Happy 5th Monthsary!

Love is like an eternal flame. Once it is lit, it continue to burn.
-Enough For Forever

POSTED BY ☆ オードリーDREY @ 12:02 AM



Saturday, October 18

Top 10 Things I Will Do After O'Levels

#1. Spent more time with my love


#2. Burn my books away


#3. Highlight my Asian black hair

#4. Hit the town

#5. Movie Marathons

#6. Singing Sessions


#7. Party ( kenneth's idea to bring piglet along -.-" )

#8. Sentosa

#9. Overseas Trip

#10. Work and earn more allowance


I'm looking forward :D

POSTED BY ☆ オードリーDREY @ 10:57 PM



Friday, October 17

Enough For Forever

Okay, Baking session this afternoon was ..
nice and not so nice, fun but not so fun, yummy yet not so yummy ( so, I shan't post the picture up )

Plan for today was, baking session, cleaning up, dressing, and off to Love's place. So, everything was just as planned. Well, I was little down when Love called to tell me he's going to be very busy tonight so he wants to see me in 5 minutes. Haha! Yeap, so I cabbed down and in 20 minutes I was infront of him. Heaven is on my side, he wasn't that busy in the end. So, we managed to be together till 11 at night. I am a happy little woman now!

I shall give my chemistry book it's due respect right after I finish drinking my bottle of green tea. Goodnight Humans!

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Thursday, October 16

It don't seems alright


O' levels start just today, Science Practical Examinations. I don't want to think about how the results would be yet. I'll do my best for it. I'm prepared to fail all remaining subjects though.

Yeah, now I realized that it's such an agony without technologies. However, without them I somehow feel peaceful. I got locked up in a room for 4 hours just after my practical with no electronic devices and food. I could jolly well have my beauty sleep of 4 hours in there. No, guess what ? My classmates are on drugs, whole room filled with screeches for 4 hours! Still, I managed to nap for 20 minutes. Thank God. I swear I would never ever want to go back to a situation like today ever again.

Pool at Katong with Classmates in the evening. Boring yet fun.


Love is very sick. I didn't get to meet him yet, just hope he feels ok and get plenty of rest. Remember, audrey lovezxzx you eyyy!

POSTED BY ☆ オードリーDREY @ 11:45 PM



Wednesday, October 15

Dear Baby,

I don't expect you to chance upon this post. Yet somehow I want you to know. I really miss you alot. I miss the way when I am the first to know about your whereabouts, I miss the way when you will never forget to dial up for me. I really miss you, in every single way.

You haven't been replying my texts since morning. I tried dialing for you yet your cellphone is always switch off. Maybe you have made up your mind not to wait anymore.

I thought about many many things and I came to a conclusion. I am scared, scared that somehow our relationship will remain back like in the past. You know, I'm sick and tired of those arguements.

I tried to focus on completing my O'levels. Yet, although my writing pad were full of essays. My mind was all about you. Without you, I've been studying less efficiently. Yes, you are my strength, my motivation. You are in control of my emotions.

Baby, shall we start anew ?

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Priceless


Things is being damn disastrous for me especially in the nights.

This was all the faint taste of goodbyes and the thought of it made my tears start to spill again. All the terror, despair and shattering of my heart. I hoped I didn't have to chance upon any posts which made me hate "truths". I know I'm no longer in position to feel the anger and jealousy. Yet, all those ugly emotions slowly took over me. And I hate that feeling, I hate it to the max. It made my heart beats to increase in rate and pump on with great force. I'm fighting for oxygen.

I shall turn in now, up for lessons tomorrow yo!

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Monday, October 13

Clean

Skipped lessons today again. This day mark the fifth day of my absence.

Gather some classmates in for mugging at Macdonalds. Guess it turn out bad. I went for soccer at petal halfway through. I just simply can't concentrate on wordy passages!


It's been a long time ever since I cry in my sleep. This morning, it happened again. Well, no one is home to slap me back to reality. So I just continue crying. It's a really bad dream. In that dream, I lost something very precious. I am supposed to own that precious someone but yet, in that dream. It was other people who own it now. The past memories however still remain fresh and new. Okay, I know its incomprehensible.

When to Bishan Junction 8 with Mummy for shopping before fetching Brother up from work. My gastric and dry contact lens sort of making me grumpy throughout. And I thought I could have a nice bath, hell no. I scream out of my lungs for my mother in the bathroom.
I saw a lizard.

I am still indecisive of whether to attend lessons tomorrow or not ?

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Sunday, October 12

Mugging

I have been mugging through late nights with Aaron nowadays. However, my mind is occupied with some other things . Thus, I failed mugging last night and when home at around 2am. Well, I don't really think Bedok Princess Macdonalds is a very quiet place. Aaron's nice idea! I get to meet many " crazy " people.

Stayed home the whole of today. Maybe I should not think about any other things and concentrate on mugging for the O's first. Yeap, I don't believe I can completely get the whole issue out of my mind. 4 months worth of love and hardwork. Yes, I don't wanna give up now. I seriously never thought of giving up. However, I really want to take a break from all the pointless arguement.

Is this blogskin nice ? I spent the whole day working on it. LiveJournal is too un-user friendly.

POSTED BY ☆ オードリーDREY @ 6:20 PM



Tuesday, October 7

Time Machine

I was sitting alone on a table at MacDonald. Across me, there was a family of three. I looked at them and soon found myself reminiscing unknownlingly.

I
realized how much I yearn to go back to those innocent days. Oblivious to all negative sides of life. " Good Girl Gone Bad " I believe this help many young people best describe themselves. A very useful song title.

That family enlightened me.

Since young, my parents showered me with more love than I deserved. They taught me every basics of life. They
humor me with childish faces and actions. Those childish promises they made, just to coax me to stop shedding tears for a lost barbie doll.

In a
blink of an eye, I am no longer three. I am sixteen.

They no longer coax me with childish promises to not shed tears, they told me the reasons why I shouldn't shed tears. They no longer humour me with childish faces and actions. They just merely flood me with hugs and offer me tissues.

How nice would it be if I never grown up. I will be happily stuck in that innocent world. If I never seen all the negative sides of life. I will be glad that I am alive. However, time will never have mercy on us. Now that I'm 16, I learn to accept things myself. I learn to face facts that I hope they
aren't. This is life. This is the way how life took away part of our happiness.

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Sunday, October 5

Too late for regrets

There's a brother whom treats me as his little sister, with all his heart. He's my listening ear, my companion. And would always encourage me when I'm down. We seldom meet up, seldom communicate. Yet still, he never once forgotten me. Flash back, I last seen him on 12th July on my birthday celebration. He appeared, with a bottle of Chivas. As promised, a birthday present.

He never fail to nag on me occasionally. Wanting me to study and to be a good girl. And would always give me the due moral support I needed when I fell out of love sometimes ago. He was always there for me, always there.

It's been 3 days after his death yet I just came to know hours ago. Too late for regrets, way too late. I realized, that there's alot I wanted to say.

Brother, sounds absurd. If you would ever chance upon this,
I missed the way you would nudge me on the messenger, bugging me for sharing new songs with you.
I missed the way you would nag me on studies and being a good girl.
I missed the way you would comfort me when I'm down.
I missed the way you would asked me questions on your relationship.
I missed the way you would asked me to comfort you.
I missed the way you would tell me that you're bored.
I missed the way you would tease me.
I missed you, in many other ways.

It's just few weeks ago when you nudge me on the messenger and greet me " meimei " . Just only a few weeks, less than a month. And now, you are gone. You taught me the word "treasure" . The word hit me hard, right on my head when I thought of you. You would be my brother, always.
Lastly, Rest In Peace.

POSTED BY ☆ オードリーDREY @ 2:42 PM



Friday, October 3

Stay Connected



Well, I went out with Love yesterday late afternoon. Undecisive of where's our destination, we all ended up at Tampines Mall. Caught a movie at Golden Village, Connected. Nice show afterall, at least it keep Love awake throughout. Home at 9.30pm and off to catch up with my [溏心风暴之家好月圆] dvd till morning 2am.

Since I decided not to attend lessons today, I went mugging with Aaron at the Library as planned. Yeap, it turn out not so effective. Haha, I dont think so he wants to mug with me ever again. Home at 4pm to change before I went to chill out downstairs alone. It's disastrous having to see him around the house even on afternoons.


it might be easier to let things flow by itself

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